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- anjci
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- About me, Everyday musings
Today, I had lunch with the person whom I have admired for years. Her drive and determination in making life choices were something unmatched. Her blog, full of photographic adventures, greatly inspired me. Four years ago, I bought my first camera to match hers and travelled to the same destinations – to match her photos, too. I kept finding common acquaintances with her in the most unexpected circumstances. The thought of her achievements led me on to try harder and be where I am today.
Therefore – notwithstanding the fact that we had only met once before, barely for 15 minutes – I considered that person a sort of a role model. Full of blog memories, I showed up at the rendezvous today thinking I knew everything about her.
It turned out I didn’t know anything at all. Most things I had been imagining about her were overturned. She was no party animal or a shopping addict. She wasn’t a ruthless character bulldozing everyone out of her way for an idea. She was no urban chick buzzing from one trendy megalopolis to another, either. I was facing an entirely new person and needed to focus on her instead – not the blog persona I thought I knew so well.
I, too, hear from my blog readers sometimes. Some of them are complete strangers but seem to be very well informed about me. They quote my life episodes. They throw in random comments about my photos. They compliment me on the part of London where I chose to settle. They ask me how my stay in Greece was. They think they know me.
But they don’t. What they know is anjči. The cool girl who travels the world alone with her camera. The fearless explorer who climbs every hill on her way and gets up at 4am to capture the sunrise. The young professional with a tonne of interview experience and financial sector knowledge. The Balkan-obsessed language wizard. Her who doesn’t get upset, who learns from all of her mistakes and who continues to fight her way towards the stars regardless. The cool girl I never was.
The cool girl I’ll never be.
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